Going home for break - Chosen Topic

There is a big difference in being around people that have known you for your entire lifetime. There is some underlying understanding of who you are and being around people that know who you are changes how you interact with them. Sometime I notice myself wanting to be something else and something new when I am around my family. Sometime I notice that I can't do anything to really change because they have seen every part of who I am.

If you wanted to compare to life at school. I feel though in some way I can be who ever I want to be because most of my friend at school have only known more for a max of three years. Those friend have seen the best of me and not really the worst of me. They did not get a chance to see the angry, hating life Matthew of high school days. That then prevents them from fully understanding who I am. There aren't many friends that I have been around me for more than three years.

Back at home, they know that before I became who I am in college I was silly and funny and then went to an angry high school Matthew and then became a semi happy to happy college Matthew. A life of transformation and my family has seen the whole story. I think that it is interesting to look at how we interact with our family and how we interact with our friends at school.

There is such a contrast between how I interact with my friends at school and how I interact with my family. Though I really think that I don't change at all between school and home but I am much quieter at home than I am at school. I think that is because my family is loud and my friend aren't as loud as my family. But I think the core of it is that my family knows me and the way I interact with them is just the way it always has been. I got a chance to interact with my friends the way I wanted to. I look forward to moving on past college and interacting with friends that have known me for ten plus years and have seen me through many different seasons.

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