Personal Challenges in Prayer: Topic of Choosing


One of the greatest difficulties in my faith life is my inability to pray openly. As a child, prayer was exciting and even second nature.  Granted, I had a fairly linear outlook on life at the time, which was reflected in my simple prayers.  As is expected, as time progressed life became messier and by my freshman year of college my world was riddled in loss and consuming doubt.  The prayers of my childhood seemed trivial and foolish and I soon adopted a cynical outlook on the existence of anything outside of my immediate periphery.

Nonetheless, for every time I've dismissed God, there's a time where I find myself in a chapel, attempting to pray, or surrounded by a community of people seeking to challenge me in my faith.

The complexity of faith is both fascinating and pain-staking.  How simple it could be if it were out in the open. Why is there no tangibility? Why is it necessary for those who call out in desperation to be met with nothing but the silence?

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